Getting Acquainted (again).

For a while now, I have been in a pretty dry and empty season with my Faith. I have been indecisive as to where I want to go to church, and the church I really love is a far driving distance (charter oak). All in all, I just haven’t been in a consistent place.

Apathy tends to sneak in and I get busy. Excuses, excuses…

I have asked myself if I am taking my relationship with God seriously.

So. Over the past two weeks, I have started to pray for God to help me to get to know Him better…through conversations, experiences, reading, and quiet time.

Two weeks ago, I bought a plane ticket to Colorado to visit some really good friends. When I need to re-focus, I tend to travel, and Colorado is a favorite place of mine to go. Anyway, in my travels, I began to re-visit ‘Bittersweet’ by Shauna Niequist.(Thank you, Elizabeth Wright, for such a perfect book recommendation).

She writes something that caused tears to fall from my eyes on the airplane because her words were so true to my current reality. She writes, “I began to live a much smaller story, and that story was only about me. I wanted an answer, a timeline, and a map. I didn’t want to have to trust God or anything I couldn’t see. I didn’t want to wait or follow. I wanted my old life back, and even while I read the mystics and the prophets, even while I prayed fervently, even while I sat in church and begged for God to direct my life, those things didn’t have a chance to transform me, because under those actions and intentions was a rocky layer of faithlessness, fear, and selfishness.”

Those 3 bolded words described my prayers to a T. As soon as I read those words, I knew I needed to start making changes with how I was praying.

Today, I was at Charter Oak Church amidst good company, and the message was on how we can have more faith. Perfect timing? Yes.

The pastor encouraged us to…

Get to know God. The best way to increase faith is by getting to know God better.

Fall in love with God.

Trust God.

…He WILL catch you. Every time.

So, that’s what I’m currently working on. Getting re-acquainted with God, and trying to pull out of this dry season where I have become entirely too comfortable. It’s time for a change.